Third round of lockdown hits a lot different because any form of novelty has completely run out, the excitement of working from home, the motivation to learn new skills and make the best of this time is gone because we’re so frustrated. Depressive thoughts live on the edge of our minds, anxiety is brewing and resentment of losing our best years is at an all time high. I’m never going to be 25 again, I’m never going to look this good or have this much energy. I’m never going to be able to look back at my twenties without the horrible stain that the pandemic left. My mental health will never go back to how it was pre-pandemic and I just don’t know how to deal with it all.
Mental health advocates and experts would say meditate, journal or go for walks to ease the pain. But I don’t want to ease the pain, I want to live my life – I want to be around my friends, go on dates, make strides at work and be a whole person. So much of ourselves gets suppressed and pushed aside to be able to handle this isolation, we took solace in the fact that last year everyone all over the world was going through it but now it seems like we’re one of the few countries left behind. There’s so much helplessness in all of this too because as individuals what can we really do? We can complain on social media or to our friends, but nothing we say can actually create tangible change in this time.
So I suppose my question remains, how do we stay sane in yet another MCO? Do we make an effort, do we try to make the best out of the situation? Honestly, I don’t want to have to make the best out of it but I think we need to. We can’t give up on ourselves and we can’t give up on creating a meaningful existence even when we’re stuck at home. As I’m writing this I’m having a hard time believing it too, but the moment we give up on hope is the moment we give up on ourselves. As cheesy as it may be, we need to remember that like all bad things, this too shall pass and everything we’re dreaming of will come to be again. We’re in this together and in all the tough feelings, remember that you’re not alone. We will weather this storm and come out of it better and more resilient than we ever thought we could be.
How have you been staying sane during MCO 3.0?